I have changed My life won't be the same All the bumps and the bruises that I met along the way All the scars hide the tears that I had to replay These are my growing pains I follow you down But you won't be around It's a miracle that I made it this far alive I don't need another man to help me swallow my pride Step aside, let go my reigns But I'm still standing I'm getting taller And these obstacles They're getting smaller Every cut I have tells my history Every winding road maps out my destiny Now I'm back under my shell And you, you're doing well But the whiskey don't hide a single memory of you And I've forgotten everything I ever wanted but you I'm flying down faster than gravity But I'm still standing I'm getting taller And these obstacles They're getting smaller Every cut I've had tells my history Every winding road maps out my destiny I have changed My life won't be the same These are my growing pains These are my growing pains These are my growing pains These are my growing pains

Taking away all the distractions Moving away from false attractions Trying to dig out of the shallow Rising up above the shadows Take me into the free Shape me I wanna be Stars are gazing at me Cuz it's my time to shine Deleting irrelevant appointments Skipping the mythical anointments No more life on the outside of the moment Stepping up each time I'm chosen Take me into the free Shape me I wanna be Stars are gazing at me Cuz it's my time to shine I don't want to get stuck With somebody else's luck I don't want to go down In somebody else's ground I don't want to get lost Holding somebody else's cross I will not be locked in By your sin Take me into the free Shape me I wanna be Stars are gazing at me Cuz it's my time to shine Cuz it's my time to shine

Wake up disoriented Head pounding loud I think the lies are warring, swording in my head Air lying stagnant Hasn't woken from the battle of the broken Wonder if it's dead Cuckoo Tripping over memories I stashed upon the table If I'm able, I can break them with my fall Drained from all the screaming And the crying and the bleeding Did it help me to forget? I can't recall Two o'clock outside and the time stands still As I'm standing in the stillness of the darkest light Another cloud floats by and it chimes inside my head Cuckoo, another hour's gone by Cuckoo Set my dreams on fire and the after stench of alcohol Is rising with the smoke of my mistakes Smell hunger on the stove so I feed the flames with gasoline I'll burn it down and hope my soul will take Three o'clock outside and the time stands still As I"m standing in the stillness of the darkest light Another cloud floats by and it chimes inside my head Cuckoo, another hour's gone by Cuckoo Chasing schemes of apathy And praying you are bad for me In time, the devil's on my mind Hoping for a sweet mirage of good old fashioned sabotage Bending to the ending of my time Four o'clock outside and the time stands still As I'm standing in the stillness of the darkest light Another cloud floats by and it chimes inside my head Cuckoo, another hour's gone by And now the door is open And I'll have to go outside Now that the light Is slowly creeping in my cave You'll ask what I've been up to And I'll smile as I reply and force a lie Before I return to my grave Cuckoo

These days I don't have much to say These days I wanna fade away I know It's not as bad as it seems But I just can't shake All of these broken dreams Ooh Where did it go? All my security I don't wanna feel This inferiority I know I have the ultimate control But I can't keep fighting with the feeling That I'm losing my soul Ooh How can I explain Beating myself up inside And running with the feeling It's gonna all pass me by Well I know you think that I'm talking about you And I maybe from time to time But it's not you, yes it's me I've responsibility to myself Ooh

You hide behind your. computer And repost lies With no intention of compromise Clinging to your antiquated politics That you pieced together from different books On a conflicting fairytale Closet racism Bedroom racism Campaign racism Environmental racism Regional rednecks dressed up in corporate green camouflage Mislabeling your own propaganda Waging battles with your keyboard And your Facebook fists Citing sources of media washed facts Fighting fire with gasoline And then feeding it hunger to breathe on Waving your flag of freedom to be right Freedom to be judgmental and exclusive Each layer of lies cementing the foundation With a mortar of assumption and defiance Refusal for alliance You bet your bottom dollar on your map And now we're digging ditches in the desert I cannot stay With my mouth sewn shut Another day I will face the bleeding When I pry my lips apart enough to scream I wonder if it's real The hate I feel And people defending everything that's wrong about us Cuz why teach my ideals Only to beat me down When I stand up to fight for everything that's right about us And I cannot stay With my mouth sewn shut Another day I will face the bleeding When I pry my lips apart enough to scream It wasn't he It wasn't she It wasn't you It wasn't me Tell me who's it gonna be? Break these chains I cannot stay With my mouth sewn shut Another day And I will face the bleeding When I pry my lips apart enough to scream Help me scream Scream with me, scream with me, come on Find the end of the circle Spiraling towards the eye Find the end of the circle Spiraling towards a lie Find the end of the circle Fall like weapons from the sky Find the end of the circle Cross my heart and hope to die Break these chains

I pushed and I pushed but I never expected You to turn around and shove We lie to ourselves cuz we don't wanna own it When we hurt the ones we love And time after time I'm trying to unravel The emotions I mixed up But the words won't come undone I think I'm ready to run The tears I swallowed keep coming back up And the fear's stuck in my throat The memories keep coming up hollow But the soundtrack still plays on And day after day I'm trying to remember Why it is I'm holding on But the pictures bleed as one I think I'm ready to run Ready to run I can't keep standing In the rain And I can't keep drowning In my pain The quicksand is quickly pulling down my frame The hourglass is running out of sand Asking for change while holding on To countless used to be's Happy to be held captive cuz we're Scared of choosing free But I don't wanna live my life As an alternate for me I think it's time for us to come undone Think I'm ready to run Ready to run Ready to run

How can I believe you When you've lied so well before How can I receive you When I saw you out the door I know I'm not innocent But I do know you're to blame I sacrificed my queen I can't take another scheme I don't see no bow, just rain Lucky for you I was prime to forget and pretend that the past wasn't true Now fooled again Looking back I can see that the masks were so clearly see through So where does that leave me? With a disdain for love and another lesson learned But at what cost? So for my last commitment I swear I'm giving up on it all Cuz how can I believe you When you've lied so well before And how should I receive you When I saw you out the door I know I'm not innocent But I do know you're to blame I sacrificed my queen Can't take another scheme I don't see no beau, just rain I know I'm not perfect In fact it's true that we all use each other sometimes But dishonesty is not something I give And I'm fed up with living with lies So there you have it You can call me a woman scorned Yeah I'm one of the rest You weren't the first No you weren't the first to break my heart But you sure were the best So what do I do now Do I keep moving on and fake like I don't know the truth Should I lie And pretend that I don't think that every last lover's a fool Cuz how can I believe you When you've lied so well before And how should I receive you After I saw you out the door I know I'm not innocent But honey I do know you're to blame I sacrificed my queen Can't take another scheme I don't see no bow, just rain Oh no I sacrificed my queen I can't take another scheme I don't see no beau, Just rain

You were right and I was wrong You knew you'd hurt me all along Played all my chips on this one hand But you locked up shop Before the cards could land Don't you go blaming love When you threw your knives at her in sabotage She was pulling you out of your black hole Too afraid to pull her down You let her wrists go But don't you remember I'm an angel And baby angels they float It would take more than your cold gravity To drag me down below You were right and I was wrong You knew you'd hurt me all along Played all my chips on this one hand But you locked up shop Before the cards could land Then as the story goes Sent you a chopper, a rope, and then a ladder And she'll send more rescues still But prophets, angels, and saviors Don't negate your free will But don't you remember I'm an angel And baby angels they float It would take more than your cold gravity To drag me down below You were right and I was wrong You knew you'd hurt me all along Played all my chips on this one hand But you locked up shop Before the cards could land How does it feel to be right How does it feel to be right How does it feel to be right I think I'd rather be wrong I think I'd rather be wrong

Gonna take a drive Just wanna clear my head Don't know what I'm gonna do Just trying to stay alive Seems like it's easier dead Though I know that ain't the truth Went to the movies trying to distract my mind But everything reminded me of you Then in the supermarket in the checkout line I started crying over you Take the top off the bottle Pour myself a drink Swear I'm getting over you But now I've had some chocolate and some time to think And there's no way I'm leaving you Off to work I figure if I just stay busy Won't remember what I miss But every smile I witness Each whisper I feel Keep me dreaming of your kiss Bumped into your friends the torture never ends Of course you know they spoke your name I tried to go the places that we used to go Of course you know they ain't the same Take the top off the bottle Pour myself a drink Swear I'm getting over you But now I've had some chocolate and some time to think And there's no way I'm leaving you There's no way I'm leaving you Tried to justify all of my guilt and pain Tried to pretend I couldn't see But babe I can't deny through all this burning rain You are the only one for me Said I needed space Time to reflect alone It seemed you weren't the best for me But still I can't erase I'm gonna come on home To where I left the rest of me Take the top off the bottle Pour myself a drink Swear I'm getting over you But now I've had some chocolate and some time to think And there's no way I'm leaving you Yeah I've had some chocolate and some time to think And there's no way I'm leaving you There's no way I'm leaving you There's no way I'm leaving you

Sometimes I feel you Tremble in the night Don't wanna sneeze cuz I'll wake you Don't wanna interrupt your flight And I wonder Who you're running from Or is it different Are you chasing someone But when I ask, you won't tell me You can't seem to speak Or is it you don't remember All your dreams Sleep Sleep now My sweet dream Watch you sleep and I wonder What can I do to ease your mind So many fears you've invented And worries to leave behind And I wanna tell you I won't let them get to you But would I, could I be able To keep that promise true I can't lie But I do anyway Brush your hair back when I say I won't ever let them take Your love away Sleep Sleep in peace My sweet dream Rest your eyes There ain't no trouble that grave Stop your shivering, you're safe You can use some of my brave But don't let your imagination Cloud your way Sleep Sleep now Sleep in peace My sweet dream My sweet dream My sweet dream Sleep now My sweet dream

Tears on my pillow Swallowing salt Well I don't know what is the reason I just know it's my fault Some kind of lover I turned out to be Baby how can I love you When I don't even love me I'm in trouble, feeling small Maybe I'm not Juliet after all There are some things that I can't say There are words that have no meaning If you don't say 'em the right way And there are things that you shout out That you just can't take away But that's ok It was nothing anyway Bouquets of poison Violence blooms Must be a thousand beats of silence In between rooms Some kind of trouble You turned out to be Baby how can I love you When you don't really love me I remember being ten feet tall But maybe I'm not Juliet after all There are some things that I can't say There are words that have no meaning If you don't say 'em the right way And there are things that you shout out That you just can't take away But that's ok It was nothing anyway Broken glass all over the floor Pick up the pieces of my fairytale And toss 'em out the door Started from scratch on this puzzle I hatched You can't be smooth around the edges If you're rotten at the core Looking for lies in a truth I've always known But what you read between the lines oftentimes is folklore How many times do we wanna believe But when we wake up we're stuck in the same damn dream Started to slip Tightened my grip Just enough to make a conscious slip What if I wake up Afraid to fall Cuz maybe I'm not Juliet after all There are some things that I can't say There are words that have no meaning If you don't say 'em the right way And there are things that you shout out That you just can't take away But that's ok It was nothing anyway It was nothing anyway It was nothing anyway

I'm not gonna wait on my Heaven Not gonna wait 'til I see the other side Cuz I already spoke with the devil Gonna count my blessings while I'm still alive Lately I've been hearing people Speculating bout the things that's Gonna be inside their paradise People who before they knew Whiskey flowing flowers bloom Don't you know it all sounds kinda nice But here's the problem with it all Sun will rise the rain may fall Every day it brings us something new And everything that you imagine Don't you know that it can happen All your dreams exist inside of you I'm not gonna wait on my Heaven Not gonna wait 'til I see the other side Cuz I already spoke with the devil Gonna count my blessings while I'm still alive So what if there's no afterlife Hell it sucks and Heaven's nice But what if that old story's not for you What if you can't make it there What if you are born again Or there's another version of the truth Cuz I can see that day to day Sunrise, sunset I replay Silver linings falling to the ground Cuz I believe that I can fly So someone tell me why oh why Would I wait until there's nothing else around I'm not gonna wait on my Heaven Not gonna wait 'til I see the other side Cuz I already spoke with the devil Gonna count my blessings while I'm still alive Right now, got a roof o'er my head, got a room for my bed Right now, got my eyes I can see, got this air that I breathe Right now, got a friend I can talk to, got a park I can walk to Right now, got a family who loves me, got a doggie who hugs me Right now, got a hand I can hold, got this food for my soul Right now, got a chance I can take, got a difference to make Right now, got a mind that is open, love to laugh when you're joking Right now, got a song I can sing, man I got everything I'm not gonna wait on my Heaven Not gonna wait 'til I see the other side Cuz I already spoke with the devil Gonna count my blessings while I'm still alive I'm not gonna wait on my Heaven Not gonna wait 'til I see the other side Cuz I already spoke with the devil Gonna count my blessings while I'm still alive

These shoes keep good time My earrings are in key Ain't got paint upon my face Cuz all the colors are inside of me My watch don't tell me what day it is But I know the time is now And these shoes keep good time babe Gotta stay in beat somehow Felt the tempo dragging y'all Felt my heartbeat drop Bound to break some branches when You're climbing to the top They listening on the mainline And they got us all in queue But don't wait to hear those cymbals crash 'Fore you notice what's in front of you These shoes keep good time My earrings are in key Ain't got paint upon my face Cuz all the colors are inside of me My watch don't tell me what day it is But I know the time is now And these shoes keep good time babe Gotta stay in beat somehow Engine revving up Pressure getting high Buckets overflowing as The notes fall from the sky Better put on the brakes Cuz the rhythm's in the space And you're taking up my air But you can't steal from me the things That we already share These shoes keep good time My earrings are in key Ain't got paint upon my face Cuz all the colors are inside of me My watch don't tell me what day it is But I know the time is now And these shoes keep good time babe Gotta stay in beat somehow Gotta stay in beat somehow Gotta stay in beat somehow These shoes keep good time My earrings are in key Ain't got paint upon my face Cuz all the colors are inside of me My watch don't tell me what day it is But I know the time is now And these shoes keep good time babe Gotta stay in beat somehow Gotta stay in beat somehow Gotta stay in beat somehow